Failed exercise of fear

[susannabanana]

A couple of days ago I was trying to exercise speaking during lectures and big crowds, but halfway through my point my anxiety shut down both my body and brain, and I could feel my body starting to shake, so I just had to stop and say I lost my train of thought, which was embarrassing on its own. But now after that, I feel like I've ruined the perception that people, especially that professor could've had of me, which annoys me.. cause I was talking about something I'm actually really knowledgeable about and it would've been a valuable addition to the conversation, but whatever forever I guess..
I don't need them to like me, but I'd like to gain some sense of respect..

I've been having anxiety about it since, plus I made really awkward eye contact with him yesterday..